TampaWRX
12-11-2005, 01:46 PM
Lately I've been made aware of the realization that I am officially not a "kid" anymore. It started to solidify in my mind when I discovered that I actually cared about politics. Things congealed a little further when the realization that I am actually concerned about the future of my community, city, state and country. Things got deeper when years of studying various philosophies started producing a tangible sense of right, wrong, better and worse in my mind, thereby making the right and better, as I understand them, priorities for me. Finally, I officially sacrificed most of the useless parts of "youth" when I began building a stock portfolio.
The funny part is, I'm actually glad! I'm the youngest person to ever reach my current position at work, which isn't a big deal in and of itself, but I take heart in the fact that it does not trouble, worry or particularly impress me. It's just a stepping stone, whereas others seem incapable of even stepping up to this level. I've leapfrogged people who have been working in the department for 15-20 years in only 6, which probably impresses no one here, but it's quite the accomplishment there. They still think of me as some young kid and in the office context, I am one of the younger individuals. Contrast that to my weekends, where I'm usually one of the older people in whatever group I am hanging with. Then I feel more like an old man, occasionally saying things no one wants to hear, thinking things most people would rather not bother with, generally just being "old". The scary part is, I can't help myself. I was never a reckless youth, so I can't say this is at all an epiphany for me. It's more of a stage in what I see as a prolonged evolutionary process. Ultimately, I want to be the wise, content, confident old wiseman...but chances are I'll end up the crazy old guy who lives in the "haunted" house up the block. :lol:
Whatever happens, I wanted to record this brain dump for posterity, simply because someone was dumb enough to give me the space to do so. :D
The funny part is, I'm actually glad! I'm the youngest person to ever reach my current position at work, which isn't a big deal in and of itself, but I take heart in the fact that it does not trouble, worry or particularly impress me. It's just a stepping stone, whereas others seem incapable of even stepping up to this level. I've leapfrogged people who have been working in the department for 15-20 years in only 6, which probably impresses no one here, but it's quite the accomplishment there. They still think of me as some young kid and in the office context, I am one of the younger individuals. Contrast that to my weekends, where I'm usually one of the older people in whatever group I am hanging with. Then I feel more like an old man, occasionally saying things no one wants to hear, thinking things most people would rather not bother with, generally just being "old". The scary part is, I can't help myself. I was never a reckless youth, so I can't say this is at all an epiphany for me. It's more of a stage in what I see as a prolonged evolutionary process. Ultimately, I want to be the wise, content, confident old wiseman...but chances are I'll end up the crazy old guy who lives in the "haunted" house up the block. :lol:
Whatever happens, I wanted to record this brain dump for posterity, simply because someone was dumb enough to give me the space to do so. :D